self demise
fabricated lies
inwards pointing hatred
makes me realise
why i feel
so lonely
why i feel
so down
why i feel
so unbearable
its because
i dropped
my crown

where is my head
where lies my mind
how does my brain
get so twisted
spinning
around and around
and around
my system overloads
volume set
to one hundred
my brain
oh it tingles
due to the power
of the surround
sound
too loud
too loud
its always too loud

how do i accept myself
when all i do is loathe
the very essence
that defines me
even if its
seen to some
to be quite
the treasure trove

well
that treasure
it be rotten
poisoned
like nazi gold
treasure like this
shouldnt be treasured
because it corrupts
all of which
you would hold

—

Originally written: 2023/07/09 (9th July 2023)